Friday, July 01, 2005
The negative life when all seems bad.
First week of school is over; good and bad I guess. At least my days are much more well spent than days at home. :D I had my share of laughing and enjoying the accompany of my friends. And I had my slight tears session with Elaine today. Oh yes, she understands and is a good listener. She's one I feel safe to leave my thoughts with too. (:
Conclusion for what I have learnt in the first week of school::
Life is so overbearing at times;
When it is good, it last long enough to fly you to cloud nine,
and make you take everything for granted.
But when it is bad, the world starts to collapse, as I would see it
and it eats in the heart of mine; the pains and bitter.
Then, I slowly walk away from the hearts of those I am disappointed in,
or have hurt me; may it be ever so blatant or so subtle.
But wait,
there is one I could not love anymore because of my uncertainty in her heart.
Life is so sad at times;
I have a friend who gets scolded almost everyday;
no freedom given and no hope was hoped.
I have friends that keeps comments about me to themselves
and treats me differently, judging me in ways of theirs.
When it is confessed to me, I think there's a kind of hurt in me,
but I still love them all the same
because they are those I hold in heart and for eternity.
I have a friend whom I no longer talk and share as much as before;
I feel jealous towards certain facts I found out, or was told,
I feel far from the heart of her's(or perhaps self-doubt has caused my heart to)
I don't see the radiant smile we used to exchange everytime we meet;
I keep my life away because the string that used to connect our hearts have deminished.
One day, I'll do my crying in the rain.
maoed.]
at 4:16 PM
